about time

Friday, where have you been all week?

oops, i'm the asshole

Why is it when I try really hard to stay calm, not overreact, and repeat myself (to get someone to remember something), it makes me the jerk? I mean honestly, how hard is it to do something when you have been told about 20 times? And how is it alright to then get super pissed and yell and storm away when you are the person who CAN'T SEEM TO REMEMBER and is being reminded, again? And the person reminding you doesn't sound mad and isn't even raising her voice. Hello? Does this seem right?

In my imaginary world, where people are responsible and respectful and decent to one another, this isn't something that needs to be discussed more than one time. Also, if you have to be reminded of something again, isn't the right thing to just go do or un-do what you forgot? Doesn't that just make sense? Apparently, no.

I really hate when people take their crap out on me. Be responsible. Take accountability. Pay attention to what you do. Remember that your actions impact others; even if in some small way.

I really need to be a hermit. I just can't believe that my expectations are so unreasonably high. Really? Really? I also really hate that whenever shit like this happens I feel like something is wrong with me. Like I am being ridiculous or crazy and expecting things that people just shouldn't be expected to do. And then I think, well why do I do it? Why do I make a point that when I get up at 4AM I am quiet and don't let my dogs bark and don't slam doors and don't make unnecessary noises. What's the point if others don't do the same? Why should I be the one who cares? And then I wish I could be the person who NEVER, EVER thinks about this problem; who doesn't realize this is even a problem or issue or something to consider. I wish I had a full frontal lobotomy.

In other news, I should be going to bed right now as it is nearly 9pm and I need to get up shortly after 4am. Can I do that? Oh no. I am too revved up. Also, I really need to eat something as my stomach has been upset all day and everything I ate went immediately into the toilet courtesy of my bowels.

You don't have to say anything, I already know. Your welcome for the overshare about my digestive abilities. Don't be jellis.

thanks, lady!

My sister is the best. More to follow later.

new job

A week ago Monday I started a new job as a bill collector. The company is very ethical and legal and really work to take care of their employees so that is really cool. The one thing it has solidified for me is that Americans are irresponsible and selfish. Just because you can't afford your bills doesn't mean they just go away. Here are a few things to remember: pay your bills, don't blame the bill collector that you have a bill, be honest, work with people who are creating an opportunity for you to pay your bills and avoid legal troubles.

In other news, getting up at 4:20 AM sucks.

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My Political Views
I am a left social libertarian
Left: 4.03, Libertarian: 5.48

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